ever feel like someone punched you in the stomach
and you can't regain your breath?

or maybe it is really one of those giant acme weights that
coyote was always maiming himself with, lying on my chest

isn't strange how much of life you can take,
all the struggles, hardships, things to overcome and endure
and then almost like forrest gump's feather
something lands on your shoulder, settles down beside you
and truly blows you away

i realize i am just one lil person on this big blue ball
and really we are all suffering the human condition
trying to make sense of everything and make our way through
and i have to believe that everyone has gone through tough times
i have experienced a lot in my short time here
right now i am going through a crisis of faith
like never before in my life

the world doesn't seem to make sense
justice is it only a word? a concept?

and what happens when one of your heros
rips off the mask to reveal a villain
when everything you thought about a person
proves untrue

the problem is that this is not the first time
this has happened to me
the problem is that i never saw it coming
and i am stunned

perhaps i am really more upset about being fooled
than anything else
that upsets me almost as much to think that

i really do have an ego about figuring people out
it is one of my prideful things
vainglory my ma maw would say

or maybe i have seen that like myself
everyone has secrets and the effects on those
that you love when they come out is devastating

only thing i can do today
is go clean
somehow rechannel this energy
bring something good
out of this nightmare

and i realize that i cannot let this
ruin a perfectly beautiful day
it is a splendid day here
blue skies
and it is 75
all my windows are open
the breeze is blowing in
and i am feeling really good

hope you enjoy your day as well
xoxoxox

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Splendid

like the day the 'smiling heads' appeared in the street. rocked my view of things for a very long time. i still hesitate to form any bond with my brother.