help me to remember
the lessons of my past
so i can face the present
confident with my decisions

~ ~ ~

these past few weeks have been out of control
dealing with so many other people and their addictions
playing smokey bear again and i know how futile that is
repeating my mantra
we are our own saviors
i have that riptide feeling once again
where one minute i am close to shore
and the next i am not
i am way out in the water
and everyone else is on shore
waving as they get smaller and farther away

i am tired of being so scared

sometimes it all seems to be spinning out of control. and then the dust settles. and you look around you and see who remains. wow, what a ride!